Our Heavenly Father is GOOD. He isn't mad at you. He isn't up there shaking His fist at your or trying to make you miserable. He is good.
"For God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us." Romans 5:8
Goodness, He gave His Son so we could be with Him! Why would He now withhold stuff and make it hard to be with Him since that is what He wants!
Listen, the devil hates God. In his twisted logic, I'm sure he blames God for his own demise. So, he has two objectives. One, he wants everyone, especially God's kids, to hate God too. And if he can't get us to hate God then he wants us to doubt God because that will hurt us and put a strain on our relationship with God.
And often, we Believers listen to His crud! Don't!
Once, several years ago someone went to my parents and told them I had said all this negative awful stuff about my parents. My parents were too smart to believe it. They went right to me and told me what this person said and told me to be careful.
We ought to do the same with God. When we doubt, when we hear whispers that He is so mean or so harsh or whatnot, we need to go right to God and tell Him what we heard and tell Him we know those whispers are not true. He is good! He have to believe that.
Now the other voice you may hear is the world's system voice. The world thinks God is harsh and horrible. The world is afraid of God. And yes we should fear God. There is no question, but the world doesn't know God has the Father. We do.
"We have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ." Romans 5:1
Why would God nullify His sacrifice? That doesn't make any sense at all!
"And without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who seek Him." Hebrews 11:6
"Therefore, do not throw away your confidence, which has a great reward." Hebrews 10:35
Your flesh doesn't get God either. Your flesh, the sinful part of you, can't identify with the Father God. The sinful part of you will put human sinful attributes on God and see Him through that tarnished lens. Listen, that isn't God.
God is just. God is righteous. God is perfect. But we go to Him through Jesus -- He made the way for us cause He wants to have relationship with us. Why would He make it hard after He did that?????
"Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful" Hebrews 10:23
God is good. God is so good. God is very very good and loving and ......wow.
Don't let this world and your circumstances get you down. Don't listen to the lies. Hold onto God. He will come through.